My Ideal Boyfriend

I would like to believe that the law of attraction is real and that I am not just wasting my time. Expectations can give a simple girl, a headache, but only so much can keep me warm at night… Anyway,  here is the profile of my ideal guy. They are NOT in order of importance. 1)     …

New Year, Same Me

Hello 2017, and hello same old me. Everyone thinks that with the new year comes a new opportunity to be someone else. Well, that isn’t true for me. I am still the same height with the same personality and overall the same physique. Same friends, well lack of many friends… and still single. I can’t…

What Runs Through a Single Girl’s Mind

“I’m SO unbearably lonely.” While every girl likes her independence, it does get old to not have that one person in your life. Being alone for a while can be a pain, and the longer you go without that physical contact, the more it can hurt, especially in one’s chest. It’s normal to crave that person…

You Don’t Know What You’re Missing

This weekend brought along with it pain, cups, and tears. All in that order.  Yes, I admit I was not a pretty sight this weekend, especially on Saturday, but there is nothing I can do about that. The past is behind me, and I can only learn from it. I’ll admit what happened was  my…

Anniversaries are Awkward

I never went to AA or any sort of rehab, because personally I don’t think they work. These 12-step meetings tend to rely on nothing besides religion and for someone who isn’t religious, they never would work. I never got a chance to pick up some shiny coin at one of these ridiculous meetings, only…

Why Write?

Why do I even write? Why do I even have a blog? I am not really documenting my entire life here, just some thoughts here and there. Why don’t I document my entire life? Well, I worry that maybe one day more and more people will read my blog and those I mention in it…

Is there such a thing as “too soon”?

For starters I probably shouldn’t be writing this blog post, so I might end up making it private. Who knows, not many people read my blog yet anyway. I only know of one for now that’s a consistent reader. But I digress. So, I haven’t slept in what is going to be 24 hours in…

Open letter to my doubts

Dear Doubts, I hate you. Love, Anita That’s what I want to say to my doubts, that is if I could. Sadly, I can not. Us humans have a plethora of emotions but unlike in the movie ‘Inside Out’, my emotions don’t communicate with one another. As a result, there always seem to be one emotion…

I’m Lost

I feel lost. Not physically lost as in I do not know the location I am currently in, but lost in the sense that I feel like I am just drifting through this world with no purpose. I’ve been to countless counselors and advisers, both at college and while I was attending high school, and…